Multiple Sclerosis over the years.  

 MS over the years is a project I have begun since my diagnosis. In 2020 at the age of 16 I got diagnosed with MS. Which for me was the beginning of something extremely hard, but also a journey I would not change looking back at it. For the people that don't know what MS is, a short little info about it: '' Multiple sclerosis (MS) is a potentially disabling disease of the brain and spinal cord (central nervous system). In MS, the immune system attacks the protective sheath (myelin) that covers nerve fibers and causes communication problems between your brain and the rest of your body. ''

For me this started with my eyes, then my feet became numb and so on, this went true to my whole body. Eventually, I ended up fighting for someone I was working on finding. Since 16 isn't the age u aspect to get something like this, I was pretty lost, pissed and done with life. However, instead of ending it, I got closer with my art and creating. Since the visual part of my brain didn't get as damaged from the attacks that happened in there, creating is something I am even nowadays really strong in. Finding myself in a place where I forget things, I need more time to process and all that circus. In that place I found my real urge to create. Everybody has the ability to create. But apparently I needed this to actually start creating with purpose. 

So then I started this. Where every year on May 30th I make a painting for world MS day. A day I use to reflect on my year with a body that is constantly fighting, in pain, but mostly inspire me. As a teenager, I loved Biology but also as I grew older I found out I never learned about this shit. And what if it happens to you, how do you cope, how do people react, am I dying, what the actual fuck am I doing. Like am I doing this being chronically ill correct? That's what I am trying to find out with my paintings. I know I am not the only one, and that a lot of people, not only people with MS can relate with these feelings. And that my dear friends is what drives me. Drives me to create and expand my emotions and feelings about this subject. A subject I was kinda shy about at first, not even shy, I was ashamed. But with saying this, it became one of my biggest strengths, and I am really grateful for that. 

So enjoy my journey and growth with these fellas here.